March 31, 2024
In what ways have you changed
compared to 1 year ago:
compared to 1 year ago:
I feel like I have changed a lot over the past year. I'm a lot better at caring about myself and what I need to do for my health; than what other people think. I'm not responsible for other people's mistakes or judgements.
I am finally going to be going into counseling. Divorce 5 years this August and I never went to counseling. Just though 'eh it will all just fade away. Well umm maybe to a small extent. I did make a big mistake not seeking counseling right away. I have this really huge thing about no wanting to talk about emotional things in the moment because I don't want to totally break down. Crying at home by myself is one thing...
So, letting my doctor put me on the waiting list to a counselor I feel like is a really big step.
It doesn't thrill me. Because I have a negative view of counseling in general. But I feel like my other foot has moved forward and I'm not just stuck in the same spot.
Many times it feels like it was just yesterday. And that no time has passed. But almost FIVE years have passed. That to me is so bizarre. And probably because I haven't dealt and processed grief properly. I'm to the point of not crying every day. But that is really not healed or moved on.
It really hurts when I text my ex. -- and i even have problems just saying that! But it really hurts when I text him about something and its basically a one word reply.
When will my heart and brain ever be on the same page.
Narcissists do not feel like they hurt anyone's feelings by lack of reaction, feeling etc... That was one of the biggest problems in my marriage and how I was not going to be treated anymore.
Narcissists do not feel like they hurt anyone's feelings by lack of reaction, feeling etc... That was one of the biggest problems in my marriage and how I was not going to be treated anymore.
I thought we would be together forever. Guess 33 years was just too long for him...
And perhaps one day I won't say negative things like that anymore. *lol*
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March 25, 2024
Blog Prompt : Dandelions
Dandelions! Curious lil things aren't they. Weed? Flower? Plant?
Did you know the entire part of the dandelion can be eaten. I am not a doctor so do check with your physician before doing anything you find on a blog...
Anything you pick outside should always be washed well. We don't want to eat pesticides, animal urine...
Dandelions are my favorite thing to see when Spring first bursts through the new grass. I always pick the very first one that I see. They are so bright and happy.
Remember rubbing a dandelion under a friends chin. LOL
I have read that the whole part of the dandelion is able to be consumed. Put on salad. It has natural medicinal properties. I really would not put the old blossom in my mouth though. Ya know the dead fuzzy one we blow away. *lol*
But fresh dandelions on your salad! Maybe in some home cooked soup.
I have read that the whole part of the dandelion is able to be consumed. Put on salad. It has natural medicinal properties. I really would not put the old blossom in my mouth though. Ya know the dead fuzzy one we blow away. *lol*
But fresh dandelions on your salad! Maybe in some home cooked soup.
Dandelions are good antioxidants, aid in digestive issues and help with the immune system.
I don't know if there are different types of dandelions or not. I know I have picked and washed dandelions right out of my yard and put on a fresh spinach salad.
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March 20, 2024
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Do you ever resist watching a show when its current. Only to come across it years later and 100% love it.
yesss. So me! *lol* I am so in love with Being Human UK version. My little big sister had said it was SO good. Even better than the american one. But I loved the american one so so much. And I just can't watch a different version of the same show with different actors. But a number of years have passed now since watching American version. OMGosh!!!
George!!! I thought he was the one character I wouldn't get into. Seemed to geeky. wow!! I have sure changed my tune on this one. He is so cute, so funny, adorable and so sweet!!!!
Always love me a vampire. So yeah Mitchell is totally awesome to me. Aaaand that accent!!! oh my. Is it Scottish? Irish? ...
aaah Annie. Sweet Annie the ghost. I love the qwirky things she says. Really, that all of them say. Because it is the UK version there are different common phrases that they say that we don't say in America. And I love it so so much.
I watch a lot of Britain documentaries on Kings and Queens...
So I love some of those accents. And the way they still speak. It has a sense of style and elegance to it still to this day.
A politeness that Americans have lost...
Anyway, I adore Nina too. George's girlfriend. She is perfect for that role. I can't image anyone else doing that part.
It cracks me up when George screams like a girl.
Oh my gosh!!! That high pitched screech is so funny.
I'm on season 3 already. I think it just barely started watching it last week. Or the week before. *lol*
The exact same thing happened to me with The Walking Dead. My sister and her family were deeeeeep into that. She told me for years I need to watch. I was always naaah I'm not into zombies. I love vampires and Frankenstein. *lol* ugh!!!
The horror! I can't believe I said that for so many years!
So I power watched 10 seasons in about a month and a half to be ready for when season 11 started whew! My sister was so impressed and amazed *lol* Yup. When I'm into something. I am ALL in!
I have had fun the last 5 years watching what i am interested in on t.v. I have watched all those vampire shows and things that were popular when I was working morning night and day as a CNA for 13 years. If I wasn't working. I was catching up on sleep. (my little comas lol)
Plus when Twilight was popular. Thats THE ONLY vampire movies I wanted to see. I saw all those series that followed as just trying to capitalize in on Twilight's success.
Aaaand of course now I love Klause from The Originals. So funny the things I think I will not like...
What shows do you recommend??
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March 17, 2024
Blog Prompt for Cute n' Charming Forum
aaahhh. sweet Easter and Spring time.
What does all that make me think of?
Family! Running around at both of my grandparents yards, in the fresh born grass. That soft grass that arrives just after winter.
Blooming lilacs, and dandylions. Carefree joy.
It's funny how often we just don't forget those long distant memories. But what did I have for supper yesterday? Hmm.. it's a mystery LOL
My sister wasn't sure what I was referring to.
So she was determined to figure it out.
Wahlah! We found that pretty glossy Easter Bunny.
Now what DID I have for dinner last night.
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February 29, 2024
So excited about the progress on the forum. I have so much I want to do. Already climbing our way up to our 1st award for 100 votes. woohooo!!!
Not quite there yet, so click to vote for Cute n' Charming.
I have a lot of plans for CU and scrap kits that will be exclusive to Cute n' Charming Forum.
Some will be completely free. While others will be bought with forum currency (hearts).
My AI generating has been an evolution since last winter. I'm learning more, and able to get much better renderings that when I first started. Actually have been thinking of removing my first generated items *lol*
Maybe I'll just put them up as freebies or something...
Kinda embarrassing. What can ya do... Learn and practice :D
February 26, 2024
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February 15, 2024
It is with a great deal of thought, that I go ahead and put this into writing today. Just so there is written digital evidence if anything were to happen...
It is completely amazing to me that in this day and age and in a very small town that my next door neighbor and tenant continues to make a point that he is a black man and that I am a nightmare to him and I am racist. Seriously!!
He knows nothing about me. Nothing of my past. Past friendships, experiences, thoughts, beliefs, feelings. But yet he so easily asks me if I write him violations because he is black.
Then when he does not finish his annual recertification for his affordable family housing (low income apartments) at Parkway East Apartments in Worland Wyoming; he continues to try to control the narrative that it is me who is at fault. That he has been nothing but respectful to me. And at every turn I am always 'messing' with him as he puts it.
I wonder why then I have so many instances that he is not following the rules. Why do I have so many lease violations written for him for excessive loud thumping music. Then, after months of causing anxiety to myself, my 2 cats, and my grand daughter when she is over visiting does he brag on facebook that he is selling the sound system that is so great that it gets him in trouble with his landlord and will definitley 'piss off your neighbors'. Really??? So, your objective IS to tick people off. And not follow rules. wow...
He wrote a huge long email to the complex Owner after she and her Attorney instructed me to post a 3 day quit on his door with all of his copies of the annual recertification notices I sent for 4 months for him to recertify.
Stating that he never got any of the notices. That I did not give them to him. That just because I print out a paper and put a date on it, does not mean I gave it to him.
*enormous laughter*
And that everyone will vouch for him and testify against me that constantly mess with him, and only him. By mess - he means harass...
Should be interesting in court I guess. When he picked an arguement with me one day when I was coming home from work (the managers office) - he now claims there were 4 witnesses. Ummm no. There was one. Apt #2 tenant was at her car. And witness to what? Him accusing me of harassment. Him asking me if I'm doing this because he's black? To which he now says that I said yes. But I did not. Feels to me like he has had a lifetime of playing the victim and getting away with it.
I have called the police because I can hear him throwing his exwife across the apartment and up against the walls. Then she turns around and tells my son that I called the police on her. wow. your welcome. But I called the police FOR you. And for myself; as it is very disturbing to hear all of that!!
Those loud sounds are extremely upsetting to me. I can't stand to hear a man hitting the wall, yelling, slam doors, knocking a woman around. And why should I?
He breaks the rules at every turn. Not -- I harass him at every turn. It's always someone else's fault.
Brings in a dog without the Owners approval, does not show up to appointments, smoking on property, loud music that shakes my walls. Then he just went to not caring at all and smoking as he is coming out of his apartment. Right in front of me. Then laughs about it.
My maintenance man has seen a stack of unopened white envelopes in his kitchen; tossed in the corner. Perhaps those are the annual recertification notices he proclaims I did not ever deliver.
So, it should be interesting if all of these witnesses come forth for him when we get a court date for eviction.
The man clearly needs mental health help in a huge way. I was even instructed to call his emergency contact - which is his father. Who lives in Texas. I thought he was going to come and get him or do something to try to help him. Maybe the Tenant refused help from his father or his father could not get ahold of him. Or maybe his father feels like its time to grow up. 32 years old after all. Has already served 4 years in prison for drugs.
Only got approved to live in our apartment complex because he said he will have his 3 children every weekend and will be getting custody of them.
Well, his children are not ever around. I assume their mother doesn't really want them around their father when he is acting looney and trying to kill himself by sawing his arm and then calling for an ambulance; that he is bleeding out...
Therefore, along with not following the lease, the rules and regulations, obeying local, state, and federal laws; he is also taking up an apartment that could be housing a family. As our properties are AFH - USDA Affordable Family Housing.
At the end of the day; it is just sad that I give someone the benefit of the doubt. Even told him he's the best neighbor I've ever had. -- Because in the beginning it was great. But then I feel like he got back into drugs again. He lost a massive amount of weight. At least 50 to 80 lbs I would say. His attitude changed, his appearance changed drastically. He talks under his breath to himself so others can't make out what he is saying. He has tried to get into vacant units, he has been reported to have entered another tenant's apartment. "Looking for his kids". Ummm at 12:30 at night you don't know where your small children are at? In the winter? With snow on the ground?? So you just start entering into other peoples apartments??? None of my tenants will put in written complaints or anything though. But they have come to me on many occassions saying they don't want him coming around. He is crazy, he is bizarre, he knocks on their door and looks like he is 'out of it' and they can't understand what he's saying.
It's a shame that he didn't take advantage of this 2nd chance he was given.
I just hope he doesn't try to do anything to retaliate against me after we go to court. Living right next door to someone so unpredictable has been scary and very stressful.
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